it has been eons since i last viewed my LJ, let alone logging in! hmm, wonder what kept me so busy to not do so when im always, always online. ahh, it must be facebook. haha. it's so fetch now~


anyhoos, salam ramadhan to all my muslim friends. jangan puasa yok2 tau! 


this year's ramadhan is so special to me because well, 2 days before ramadhan, i underwent a surgery. a minor one. patients with my diagnosis are normally warded but my doctor thought it was something else (simpler than a minor, lol) so, day surgery would be good. day surgery means that i won't be warded but will be under observation for several hours and sent home on the day itself. well, i was in good condition so they let me off anyways. honestly, i never felt that nervous before. i was especially nervous about having the tube in my mouth. i never liked inserting the tube to my patients. and now they are putting it in for me! gah! the tube is just to help me breathe while i was being put to sleep. a good cause ... but i just don't like it! funny thing was i liked the part when they were trying to put me to sleep. the anesthetic kept injecting fluids into my veins and she kept saying .. 'shikin, you'll be going to sleep soon' repeatedly. i remembered being wide awake still, breathing in sleeping gas through the mask, lying down on the operating table, looking at all the nurses and doctors walking about here and there. and last i said was, 'why am i still awake?' .. and the next thing i know, was throwing a fit at them. when they transferred me i was banging the trolley's cotside. little did i know .. i had a mini episode of bronchospasm. the friendly nurses told me i loved the tube. didnt wanna let go of it when they tried to get it out. said i was biting it hard with all my heart, kicking and pushing them. god, didn't think i'll be like my patients. haha.


another special thing this year is that since i went for the op, im now on  hospitalisation leave for 2 weeks. and for the first time in what seems like so loong, i have the opportunity to break fast with my family together since day 1 of ramadhan. ;)


honestly, my parents have done alot for me. my dad for sacrificing the bed for me. poor man has been sleeping on the couch since my op day. ive been sleeping with my mom since the toilet is in their room. and my mom, for abolutely everything!